I totally forgot how crazy everything is with my family, how stubborn my grandparents are, and how much my mom loves to talk. Being really far away from my family does make you forgot about certain things. I do miss that thpugh.
My mom sometimes complains to me about what my grandma did, then in back of my mind, it goes, “Mom, you did the exact same thing about 10 minutes ago”. I guess that’s the thing about family, you love them but at the same time you find them annoying. People who know me really well probably know that I have a bad temper, I often raise my voice when I get frustrated, except if you are over 75 years old, and I love certain things to be in certain ways, if you changed it, you are driving me nuts, I have a little bit of control freak syndrome. I am surprisingly patient to the older people somehow, and it doesn’t matter what they do, they can never drive me crazy. I noticed that since couple years ago, I used to yelled at everyone around me, then something changed me, I really don’t know what happened. lol. I still do that to my mom, I really don’t know why, I should stop though, everyone should be nice to their mom…I am working on that. My mom does driving me nuts sometimes. I also do appreciate her existence, she never gets mad at anything, which is a good reminder for me to NOT GET MAD at anything. She is wise because of that, it is also so hard to get into a fight with her when she has absolutely no response at all when I raised my voice. There are always so much to learn from your parents if you pay attention.
I haven’t seen my mom for about 1 year, and same with my grandparents. My grandparents got new smart phones now, it has been fun to teaching them how to use the phone from sratch. Each of them even kept a notebook on the side on how to use the phone, with step by step instructions from what does each button do on the phone to how to navigate around each app. I honestly feel so lucky that they are still around, I love it when they tell me stories about their childhood which was back in 1930s, everything is so different back then, learning the history is a big part of understanding why each of them is like this now. Both of my grandparents from my mom’s side are Chinese teachers in high school, their stories are of course so enjoyable.
Life has its own way of telling you what’s going on right and what to do sometimes, even though everything is in a total chaos now, but I somehow am really calm at the moment, maybe it is because I am with my family. The beauty of a family is they are always there for you no matter what; they love you unconditionally at all time. You would definitley be happy if you focus on what you already have and stop chasing the things you don’t have and cannot have. Go with flow, and things that belong to you will come along you way. Definitely don’t forget to work hard with what you want, work hard is a huge part of everything.
Smile, cause life is interesting and beautiful at all time when you look at it in a different way.